Since some time I can't speak about my feelings in Russian as it sounds pathetically wrong and doesn't express all the peculiarities of my mood I'm eager to tell about.
I know the person I'm writing this for is going to have some difficulties translating this piece and trying to understand what that google-translated shit is about, but... But the thing is I don't write it out of a wish to show off. I'd better not write anything on the subject at all, that would be the best corse of action, but unfortunately I can't afford such an option. I just can't.

I want to say 'Thank you' for this person who was always there for me no matter what and I also would like to say 'I'm sorry' for not being a very patient shoulder to cry on when you needed it.
It is life. We had wonderful times together and we is sure will be enjoying much more of them in the company of each other. I just can't imagine otherwise.

I don't really trust written words. It is one of the multiple reasons I'm writing this message in English.
That's why I'm finishing now and going to get the phone. Right now.


Happy Birthday, Rouse.